And seriously Phant, do you think that not doing what you've been trying to do for years will make anyone happier with you than it just taking a bit longer?
instead i failed math because i was too busy campaigning for the provincial election all semester to learn linear algebra, and winning awards at the national model un conference in NY instead of reviewing for finals, on top of the other four classes which were among the hardest i've ever taken, including this tax class which i didn't get a good enough mark in for the entrance exam, so i had to do math in may/june, and then do this tax class by distance learning (aka read the textbook and the tax act) and write the exam in october
so basically it's all on me because i did too much
you can't win everything
i helped win nmun, canimun, i helped win 4/5 seats and the general election for the party, but when it came down to the one thing that only depended on me, i failed
and it's not that my dad has unreasonable expectations
he'll get over it, he'll realize quickly enough it's a temporary delay, but fuck it's going to feel awful to tell him i fucked it up
y'all remember that accident i had two years ago? my first conscious thought, after i opened my eyes and saw the whole cab sideways, and realized i was alive, was: "dad is gonna be so upset"
he breaks his back for us, for me, my education, and my future, and i can't even pass a fucking tax class in time
Dude, your only human and we're our own worst enemies. I used to fear that I'd disappointed my parents, not gone to school, enlisted. I found out years later that all they wanted for me was to be happy.
you want to talk familial disappointment? My dad's family consists primarily of blue-collar workers and sports players. I had the piss-poor luck of being born as the Smart one, and to top that off, my heart problems as a kid made it impossible to play any sports in school during my early years. I could probably handle it now, or could've during high school, but i'd never developed an interest in them.
They love me, i'm sure. your family kind of has to love you no matter what, but i'm pretty sure they'll never respect me until I find some way to prove myself as a man.
it's just one of those things that i'll have to get through before i can get over it
i'm really mixed up right now
there's this fear people have
and i don't know how fair it is to ascribe it to other people because i can't feel what they feel
but y'know how some people get exam anxiety? i don't get that because i'm always in control in an exam situation, time is always on my side and i usually know more than enough material to ace it
but i feel like i get that anxiety when i ask out a girl i really like, like not just a random girl to take to dinner or a movie or whatever, but someone you actually want something serious with
and you're definitely not in control, you don't know the answer
he's saying this thread is in danger of drowning in fat, and we need to chill out on a life raft rather than flailing around throwing greasy white chunks of cholestorol at people we don't like
I think highlighting stupid things people say over there and lolling at it is one thing, but going full OMFG WHAT A HANDFUCKER MORON is just
I don't know
chill out